Hi! You're super cool. You make awesome music. You're a gardener. You live in New Zealand. Is it possible that you are my dream life from the future come back to intimidate/taunt/inspire/encourage me?
Yes! I’m not cool, I’m a try-hard! Haha. Just doing the things I love. Creativity is pretty much the meaning of life for me, and constantly learning. My next thing is that I’m starting a woodwork course soon! Excited.
it’s been eight months since glandular fever
and now i have chronic fatigue syndrome
and i understand all anyone who’s ever had it does
it’s invisible, and people don’t understand it
it looks like weakness
you can’t complain
you can’t do things
you somehow have to stay happy
i’ve reasoned lately that my ideal relationship is where i am independent whilst AT THE SAME TIME with somebody who is also independent
that we both do what we wanna do to make ourselves fit, healthy, and happy
and then at moments through the week we come together, support each other, hang out
or send a little unexpected text or two of love
and that the relationship embellishes this happiness that we make for ourselves
almost like the icing on the cake
But I wonder…
is that selfish of me?
when perhaps a partner wants time, needs healing,
needs help getting by
i hope you start feeling better soon, sending some e-hugs and good vibes your way. also...i don't know if you have the energy for it, but some of my best songs come out when i'm feeling the worst. maybe something brilliant will come out of this mess in the end ♥
Thanks! Yep, I already got one song out of it, so that’s something! but I am struggling with energy for even playing guitar at the moment. Hope it gets better soooooon :) feeling more positive today at least!
life has been the most tough it’s ever been lately
every kind of stress you could imagine
whilst being in a plateaued state of chronic fatigue
every sick day is unpaid now
relationships require work and energy
my work requires energy
even living and eating healthily requires energy
this is about as low as I’ve been for a long time
still, I’ll not stop truckin’
I just wanted to remember this feeling
So that when I’m better, I can realise that I GOT better
So many people trying to improve their lives in the world
and I used to be one of them
but right now, my body won’t let me
and that’s tough.
Anyway, more blood tests
And a fatigue clinic appointment soon
So come let that sunlight shine on through my window