i hope you start feeling better soon, sending some e-hugs and good vibes your way. also...i don't know if you have the energy for it, but some of my best songs come out when i'm feeling the worst. maybe something brilliant will come out of this mess in the end ♥
Thanks! Yep, I already got one song out of it, so that’s something! but I am struggling with energy for even playing guitar at the moment. Hope it gets better soooooon :) feeling more positive today at least!
life has been the most tough it’s ever been lately
every kind of stress you could imagine
whilst being in a plateaued state of chronic fatigue
every sick day is unpaid now
relationships require work and energy
my work requires energy
even living and eating healthily requires energy
this is about as low as I’ve been for a long time
still, I’ll not stop truckin’
I just wanted to remember this feeling
So that when I’m better, I can realise that I GOT better
So many people trying to improve their lives in the world
and I used to be one of them
but right now, my body won’t let me
and that’s tough.
Anyway, more blood tests
And a fatigue clinic appointment soon
So come let that sunlight shine on through my window
i didn’t realise how much running was keeping me on the level, mentally until now, and it’s tough to stay as happy but i guess it’s the fatigue that is making me sad too still, i’ve got my music and a cool gig next Saturday opening for Miles Calder and the Rumours at The Moorings, Thorndon, Wellington, NZ ( check them out on spotify! )
so, went to the docs this morn and i have to pull out of the marathon which is 6 weeks away
i have to refrain from exercise and sport for at least a few weeks after symptoms have passed annnnd at the moment symptoms are still slowly kicking-in i’m feeling run-down and sore
and my work are stressing me out pulling me in for a meeting on a sick day reminding me that i only have 5 days paid sick leave whilst at the same time saying they are a ‘supportive employer’ and saying my absence has had a big impact on the team (after TWO DAYS off!) she even said ‘look, i woke up tired this morning, but i came into work’ and i couldn’t believe it, man
i only took time off to get better in the vague hope i might be able to recover in time which now is almost certainly not going to happen
and maybe even just ‘not exercising’ is making me quite sad i guess that’s normal too
oh boy, i will drink a cup of concrete and harden the f*ck up haha
Wow, ignore that guy who commented. I meant what I said. I love seeing you set goals and work so hard for them and achieve them. Your optimism and undying passion and motivation is really heartwarming.
yeah, why do i have a tumblr?
it’s a record of the things I’ve done,
it’s a way of connecting with
runners, musicians, artists, and interesting people
a sense of community
sometimes you get support! :)
but i’m not on here to gloat
or to reblog generic stuff
i’m here because most of my life
and most of my personality
is built around a desire to express myself
and a need for making sense of my thoughts
and of the world around me
and the things that i do
if anyone reads it
then it’s a bonus!
and messages like yours,
are an EXTRA bonus!
here’s a new song for ya let me know what you think :)
forests of darkness silhouette whispers branches that stir through the night you held me tighter you held me paralyzed without a flashlight our senses are stronger unweighted and dancing alone like leaves in the river drifting to someday come home
and what if the snows descend on us like some alaskan wilderness what if these tired eyes depend on what they see where are the plans that you designed i guess that they never found the light what if these sideways glances believe in me
damn this old city with winds off the strait rattling the panes of our homes some nights it’s hard babe to carry this weight all alone so whilst they are sleeping let’s pitch to the north with surfboards we’ll go find the sea by the foot of the mountains on the desert road we’ll be free
i’ve learnt the truth babe for years i’ve known that worries don’t make much more sense than carrying a heart babe an empty old heart to your death so live for the stories of sweet bad decisions of chances you’ve taken for love and in the winter of life dear i’ll find you when the blizzard comes
Hi Ali, I have photos of you from Friday night at Bodega. I expect to have a gallery on our website later today; I'll send you the link to that and also a download link for high-resolution copies. (Or you can ask for a CD if you don't want to download. It's all free.) Do you want the gallery ones captioned "Ali Whitton" or "Lost Bird"? Or both? - Wendy (lighting guy's partner)
That’s great. As ‘Lost Bird’ please :) thanks heaps.
i had my first gig in ages last night
it went super and the new song went down a storm
woke up hungover
couldn’t get back to sleep
so hit my intervals training
whilst listening to Otis Redding
BEST RUN for a long while!
feel good again and coping ok with the ankle problems