for all the marbles
amandine
‘for all the marbles’ by amandine
August 2010
47 posts
i'm beginning to get emotional
[ 3 days until i leave ]
So what plans do you have for your new blank canvas? I hope singing and songwriting is a major part, you shouldn't let anything stop your dream! :)
New Zealand makes me so jealous! Lucky you
hey hey! well, i would like to work away from computers, ideally outdoors, BUT i would be prepared to work an office job if it had a moral purpose - i.e. a charity. ultimately, i’m interested in getting into relief work, maybe the red cross. MUSICALLY: …even just having the strings not currently on my guitar i got a little hunger for playing it, so i’m sure it’ll come back slowly/naturally. THE REST: i want to stay active, swimming, cycling, skiing, rock climbing. that’s my plan :)
p.s.
the castle is just outside of a place called Masham in North Yorkshire.
y'know sometimes...
….when you have your guitar case open on the floor
and your acoustic guitar has no strings on it
because you took them off to get access to the sound hole
so that you could fill the hollowness of the wood with socks and pants
because you’re trying to compress your life down for a journey
and you’re treading water for these last few days
when all you really want to do to pass this time
is to fingerpick some chords
and to sing a little bit, just to feel alright again
just to see what would happen, which words would join to which tune
maybe to make something from nothing
do you know that feeling?
[ haha…. i do! ]
untitled #2
chewing some peppermint gum
i breathed into my t-shirt
stretched the neck, it felt warm
it was only a silly way of hiding
recoiling from a world
it was only the act of indifference
at who and where i am
it was only a pointless action
a break from the bloody screen
now i’m stretching to the ceiling
all artificial light
that illuminates a lifelessness
falsifies the sky
fingertips are reaching
i will leave this place soon
to have my muscles moving
twisting, feeling warmth
blue sky reflects the ocean
that they told when i was young
i will fly above her
and i will feel small
pressed up against a portal
that’s two plastic layers thick
seeing desolate frozen landscapes
trying to spot where people live
and i’ll wonder what it’s like to be down there
and i’ll daydream about the next wavering step
it feels like i haven't got enough money
and it’s really beginning to freak me out…
i’m stressed …. (think: uptight and snappy)
and i just want the last seven days to pass without expense
but that’s not possible, which means i’ll have even less money
argh.
i want to cry
but it just means i will have to be clever in the states
for four weeks…
not eat too much and not drink too much
maybe do lots of walking
yes, that’s a plan
just go a’ wandering
oh cripes,
anxiety is creeping in BIG time.
My last Sunday in London
In 1 week today I’ll be in Yorkshire
In 2 weeks today I’ll be in Grendale, CA
In 3 weeks today I’ll be in Portland, OR
In 4 weeks today I’ll be in San Francisco, CA
In 6 weeks today I’ll be in Wellington, NZ
In 7 weeks today I’ll be in Christchurch, NZ
After that, there is no plan.
i fly...
…in two weeks today! hell yeah.
“Well it’s just that wouldn’t it be great if mattresses had spaces for your arm, so that when you rolled onto your side, you could fit just right? … And good for your back, probably, because it would let your spine be straight, which I know is important. … Also, it would make snuggling easier. You know how that arm constantly gets in the way? … And snuggling easier is important.”
—
Oskar Schell (via savannaharik)
I love Oskar Schell so damn much.
with every love
i have talked of running away
but none could find the courage
or they laughed it off
listing reasons they must stay
it only serves to prove
that you’re not scared of dying
it’s more like a reverse
“we’re born with a free will” i say
with a stab, you interrupt
a counter of “obligations”
for which you must also leave
so far from ever understanding
about making distance real
So here goes nothing
A pen cuts into a line
I wanted to say something
If by chance we are that kind
Ones who delve a little deeper
Whose sadness is our saviour
Searching but knowing never found
A false method of distraction
Illusive in our hands
Creating worthy moments
When the real truth is in our eyes
And that’s how I know you’re like me
It’s not medical or science
We’re both just getting by
And though often left unsaid
I take comfort in you knowing
That in silence we are friends
In distance ever bound
The way our actions formed
By literature we understand
And the songsmiths we embrace
But we despair at different times
Which is why we must be friends
I will find you when you’re lost
Make damn sure that you’re warm
And free from any harm
It is love
For, in this life
That is all I wish to spend
Listen
who am i to say by justin townes earle
[ i have been walking around Berlin listening to this song a lot, a lot, a lot ]
[ i love Berlin ]
i am in berlin today and tomorrow and it's super fantastische
[ i think that i will move here if New Zealand doesn’t work out ]
Your "about me" just makes me smile, it's exactly what I'd like to do but can't figure out how in terms of money and jobs but I might one day. I like your taste in music. Good, good, good luck in New Zealand.
thank-you… i just looked through your tumblr and got worried we might be pretty much the same person. haha, random and funny, you must stay in touch! what do you do? p.s. don’t worry about the “how”, because things always work out - unless they don’t in which case i’ll tell you in a month or two. but sometimes it’s best just to leap. woo yeah.
i'm writing short stories at work
[ i want to be free ]
someone is eating a satsuma next to me
and it smells great and makes me think of my childhood
when i knew for sure where/what my home was
the hallway had a frayed green sea coloured carpet
over dark, paint-speckled floorboards
and the way the front door would swoosh
and the feel of the tarmac on the drive when i grazed my knee
i was playing with my twin brother and my best friend
and the old white gate kept us safe, a boundary
facing the fields across the road
out towards the hills of the north york moors
Hi! When are you moving to NZ? Have you decided where you're gonna be living?
i leave london on 1st sept… so counting the days! :) …but i’ll be spending sept in california… so i arrive in NZ on 1st october… and i’m leaning back towards wellington again i think. but i’m going to hang there when i arrive and then visit christchurch…. but unless something amazing happens in christchurch i expect to be settling in welly. it just looks more like my kinda city. eek. i’m nervous and excited.
“It is not so important where one settles down. The best thing is to follow your instincts without too much reflection”
— Albert Einstein
On the whole city dilemma...
I only know Wellington and I really like living here. Apparently Christchurch isn't as windy as here and it's cheaper to live. But the Kiwis I know always complain that it's a dodgy place, with high crime rates. And Queenstown is just to party.
Depending on the kind of industry you want to work, you'll find more options here in Wellington. And by the way, have you ever heard of Trade Me? www.trademe.co.nz
Kiwis use it for everything. :)
And one more thing: the North Island is just as beautiful as the South Island. There are mountains close by. I mean, it's New Zealand, anywhere is close!
yeah, tradme.co.nz is super useful… especially for an idea of house/rent prices. i am now leaning back towards wellington. i think from the advice you folks have given me Queenstown is not for me. and Wellington looks more like my kinda place…. i was just hoping to ski on the weekends next winter… but i’ll find a way! :) x
Wellington. Please let one person pick Wellington. At least for a day.
this is all helpful :)
my flight lands in Wellington on 1st October then I go to Christchurch after 6 days. I have a feelin i will love Wellington, but I want to be close to mountains too (in time for Winter)…. hmmmmmm.
i have problems...
i am thinking about living in the following places…
wellington, christchurch, or queenstown?
i just do NOT know.
and i don’t really have the money to sorta travel around and figure it out. i suppose i can always move. but i’d really like to settle somewhere. we will see…
July 2010
71 posts
My Sunday Morning Thought....
Arrrrgggghhh and eeeek! IT’S ONE MONTH UNTIL I LEAVE!?!?!
